THE Answer

Today i have finally found the answer.

through the special morning service, i was able to find peace within me

for time, i've been in very strong denials and hated myself for never doing what i want

but doing things because "others" want me to, sees me as, looks up to me as...

basically i was lost.

i lost my way

but i remembered "a word of advice"from a junior pastor couple of years ago

she said to me: everything that you do, whether it is something that you like or don't like, God will make use of all your talent

Then i remembered pastor bryan's last wednesday night sermon

"There are many NOs in life, and few Yes.."

and my mom once told me:

"i find peace and happiness within God, my life right now is happy because of God."

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as i started to piece myself together, i found the answer to my problem.

i started my college life with the major of linguistic and honestly at that time, 

i did not know what it was just that it was related to languages. 

my first 1.5 semester in linguistic was fun, i really enjoyed it.  

however during my 4th semester into linguistics, 

a professor named Dr. Hertz ruined all the joy of linguistic.  

it was too late for me to change my major because 

i was more than half way done with the degree. 

so at the end of that same semester, i decided to take upon anthropology

and later focus in the fields of forensic anthropology.  

believe it or not, i was accustomed to this field of study through 

the tv series Bones and i loved what Dr. Brennan was able to conduct.  

Finding the answers within the bones 

and i really love osteology, 

it was more fun to learn about the bones than linguistics.

as i have finished up my 5th semester last fall,

i wasn't all into it because of my hate in linguistics grew so much

but still i've miraculously survived that semester (thanks you for your prayers! ♥)

every time when i'm in a break from school or in a vacation

i have always be confronted with a major problem (an illness perhaps)

i look at what i have done so far and what lies ahead for me in the future

and if i take these two into consideration

i have always beat myself up 

for not able to find peace and happiness in what i was doing

so i ended up hating myself more and more

since last year, i have been secretly searched for theology schools

as time permitted or if had nothing to do

BUT during this winter break, 

i have been putting more effort into my search 

Today, i was able to piece all these puzzles together

and find the path that the God is preparing for me

a path to become a servent of the Lord

THE paths of ministry and missionary

✎ From the ☾ moon that shines bright as a shooting star ☆